Whether you know me in real life or in Second Life, it doesn”t really matter much now. Both lives are kinda merged as of now. I came to the realization that the me in Second Life was the me that was hidden away all my life. Scared to come out, scared of what might happen if anyone knew it. But as of July 2007, my life is changing and I am realizing it has to be done. Second Life was a way for me to be myself since I couldn”t in real life, and it made me both happy and sad at the same time. Happy for the fact I could be me, but sad due to the fact that i knew in real life it wasn”t possible.
In July, I came out to my parents and my closest friends. Since that day, I have felt so much better about myself and am now able to take my life in the right direction. My parents and friends were very accepting and have been there through my ups and downs. My goals are set and my mind is made up, my future will be what i want to make of it. I want to live the rest of my life happy as myself and not what I had been forced to live as. While some may not understand, may get upset with me, or just plain hate me. It doesn”t matter what they think or say, this is my life and I won”t be changing my mind or my heart for anyone else but me. I spent my life trying to live up to what everyone wanted/expected of me and it”s not what I was.
Ok, no more of that, look forward to a lot more posts here as this will be the only blog I post to anymore. This is my future life, my future self. accept it or not, this is me.